I'll probably forget about this a lot. I'm going to attempt anyways.
Day 1 - Your best friend Day 2 - Your crush Day 3 - Your parents Day 4 - Your sibling Day 5 - Your dreams Day 6 - A stranger Day 7 - Your ex Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet Day 10 - Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to Day 11 - A deceased person you wish you could talk to Day 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain Day 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you Day 14 - Someone you’ve drifted away from Day 15 - The person you miss the most Day 16 - Someone that’s not in your state Day 17 - Someone from your childhood Day 18 - The person you wish you could be Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression Day 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance Day 23 - The last person you kissed Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times Day 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day Day 28 - Someone that changed your life Day 29 - The person you want to tell everything to, but are too afraid to Day 30 - You
I was planning on cutting it, but now I’m not so sure.
This week has been chaos and wonderfulness. I no longer attend high school and have received my diploma. I went to prom; and it was okay- but absolutely not the magical night it is supposed to be. Or the crazy night its supposed to be. I wish there were things I could change about that night- but I can’t. So thats it and we must move forward.
Harbor Cruise was my favorite event. It was the beginning of all the fun, and we knew it wasn’t over yet. But now it is all over. Done. Forever. Finished. Completed. Cut off all ties. End all.
Where do I go from here? I suppose I’ll just party every single night and hopefully get my act together for UMass. Fuck. When did I become so average? I wanted to be slightly more successful than the majority. But I came to find you must have a calling to do that. You must have a distinct goal you want to reach- a career you know you want, way ahead of time. With an undecided future, you cannot be more successful than the average person. Because you are the average person.
I just want to talk about Meghan. But I don’t have the words. I feel like there are no words as wonderful and beautiful and inspiring as Meghan is. The way she lived. Knowing each day was closer to her last. ALWAYS SMILING. I can’t even conceive it. She deserved life more than most people. She deserved prom. She deserved a graduation in front of hundreds. She deserved Harbor Cruise and All Night Long Party. She deserved the best parking spot in the senior lot. She deserved the most expensive raffle prize at All Night Long. She deserved a fun filled beach BBQ with all her closest friends. She deserved a full scholarship to the college of her choice. She deserved a golden sash and she deserved the right to hold all the awards she won this week, in her hands. And admire them, with her eyes. But maybe heaven is greater than all those things. Maybe heaven is greater than the best of anything of earth. I’ll visit her soon. Maybe tomorrow I’ll go for a walk…